Feeling Good & Being Good

Hey beautiful people,

I hope you had an amazing Monday. I chatted with one of the Stoa facilitators today: Tyson Wagner. We chatted about using freestyle rap to find communitas. You can watch our conversation here.

Tomorrow’s events:

  • Time Tweak w/ Ivo Mensch. May 19th @ 11:00 AM ET. 60 mins. RSVP here

  • Journalism During the Liminal War w/ David Fuller. May 19th @ 1:00 PM ET. RSVP here.


May 18, 2020

I am listening to Garbage right now. I had the hots for Shirley Manson when I was a teenager. What a hot bitch. I have a soft spot, and a hard spot, for girls who have issues. Why is this? Is this my good guy game? A savior complex? The fantasy of me being that knight with armor that shines so handsomely? Sometimes I want to feel good more than I want to be good, and to be good requires you to be willing to die like a dog when no one is watching. 

I dig chicks who are only happy when it rains, and I want to die when no one is watching. What is a virtuous man to do with this tension? Maybe I should reinvent love, and kill the old love stories once and for all. They are devious spells, that tell sexy lies with annoying alibis. They are cast not out of love, but from a place of unworthiness. And love spells only work, in the wrong way, on the unworthy; and this man feels worthy.

I am not going to get Plato on your ass, and suggest we ban all poets. No. Poetry is dope, even though I find most poetry pretentious. In creating a new world, we got to use the material we have in front of us. There is joy in the makeshift and there is an ugly beauty to being a normie punk. The daemon does not care for the dead status that provides reliable guarantees. No no no. The daemon wants love, not love stories, but sometimes you have to tell a bad story to discover the love that you feel undeserving of.

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