Honour What We Let Go
Next week’s events:
Life Art w/ Jonathan Harris. March 18th @ 2:00 PM ET. RSVP here.
RIP Liminal Web: A Death Ritual. March 20th @ 6:00 PM ET. RSVP here. 90 mins.
Check out what is happening in our wisdom gym:
Collective Journaling. Daily @ 8:00 AM ET. Patreon event. 90 mins
Collective Presencing. Every Tuesday @ 3:00 AM ET. RSVP here. 90 mins.
Embodiment Hour. Every Thursday @ 12:00 PM ET. Patreon event. 60 mins.
Collective Presencing. Every Friday @ 8:00 AM ET. RSVP here. 90 mins.
Collective Presencing. Every Friday @ 12:00 PM ET. RSVP here. 90 mins.
Stoic Breath. Every Sunday @ 10:00 AM ET. RSVP here. 60 mins.
Newly posted event:
Stoic Breath: Breathing Through the Fear w/ Steve Beattie. March 23rd @ 6:00 PM ET. RSVP here.
***
March 13th, 2022
I was pretty manic yesterday. A lot of creative energy was flowing through me. When this happens many insights usually emerge. And many insights did emerge.
I had big swinging daemon energy as well. Music sounds so much better when I have manic-inspired big swinging daemon energy. I usually get up and dance during these moments. I think my dancing is better during these moments; I feel freer, more sensual, more let-us-fucking-get-after-this. I probably just look like a big swinging dork though. I am not dancing to impress others when I dance alone. I dance alone to celebrate this body, along with the insights it gives me.
I’ll probably write about these insights later, or simply act on them, as they are actionable insights. The insights that are actionable are the ones that make me want to risk dancing like a dork. I wonder why manic energy is coming online now. I did have some good processing during some recent private journals, letting things go, which probably opened things up to flow through me.
It could also be something about this time of year. It seems a creative download usually comes to me in March. Around this time in 2020 is when the idea of The Stoa came to this bodymind. When it came, I saw it so clearly. I was manically explaining to others how awesome this thing was going to be, and they were like: okay there, good luck with that. I knew something interesting would manifest though. I thought I knew this because I sensed the daemon knew this.
Maybe spiritual stuff does happen around the spring equinox. I do not know. I am starting to like this time of year though. The Stoa was born a day after the equinox in 2020, and last year we had a pretty epic birthday party called Maybe the End of The Stoa Party, which I was hyping up as a potential deathday party. It did serve as a death ritual, full of beautiful exercises, giving a sense of renewal. We meditated, freestyle rapped, and got teary-eyed together. I kept everybody in suspense if I was actually going to end The Stoa on its first birthday, something I was genuinely considering in these journals building up to the party.
I am not planning on ending The Stoa this year. I am not hosting a birthday party for it either. There was way too much pressure I was putting on myself to live up to the epicness of last year's party. Besides, The Stoa is shy right now and wants to have a quiet birthday. If this simulation does not shut down before March 2023, maybe we will have another birthday/deathday party, and maybe this one will be in person.
Things are opening up now here in Ontario. The mask mandates are dropping on March 21st. Masks will no longer be required in most indoor settings. Who knows what will happen next with the virus, but this announcement does feel like a symbolic end to this aspect of the meta-crisis. It also feels symbolic to me that this is happening on The Stoa’s birthday.
The Stoa was a child of corona, born during the madness of a pandemic’s start. Things are not going back to normal. There will probably never be normal again in our life. There is new energy now. I am probably going to start hosting more in-person events again in Toronto. This is what I was doing before The Stoa started. I am hesitant to do this though.
And shy. I am kind of shy. My resting barbarian face you see on Zoom may convey I am some 24/7 calm Stoic cucumber, but no, I am not. Despite how much work I have put into getting good at social dynamics, I still get pretty anxious and feel pretty awkward. Socializing takes a lot out of me. I do like being around groups of people, but a part of me does not. My preference is to hang out with Camille, Socrates, some close virtuous friends, or dorkily dance alone.
I also like writing to myself, and this virus encouraged me to write to myself in front of you. I kind of like writing in front of you. A sadness is here now. A sweet one, and I am somewhat teary-eyed. I do not know why. I do not want to know why either. I just want to feel this sweet sadness with you. The world is wild, and I feel wild as well. This scares me. I know you get scared too. I do not know what we are becoming or where we are going. I do know things are changing and the energy is shifting again.
This seems like a good moment for us to pause, take an existential breath, and honour what we let go.
***
Support The Stoa @ patreon.com/the_stoa
Apply to Beyond Self-Discipline @ maven.com/thewisdomgym/beyond-self-discipline