Spiritual NoFap

Dear friends,

I trust you are staying beautiful. :)

Events this weekend:

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May 22, 2020

I am listening to Kanye West again. When I listen to his music I feel the daemon bursting out of him. I have been talking with a lot of women lately who I find attractive, who are plugged into intellectual circles, and who want to help out with the Stoa. I feel they were intimidated talking to me, and the ones who were practiced in authentic relating, confessed they were indeed intimidated. 

I was having an authentic conversation with one who I find especially attractive, and she said she was intimidated by me because she thought I was a larger than life figure. This made my ego sing of course, but it also filled me with deep existential loneliness. But for the sake of this journal I will let the ego sing for a while. That dragon energy is coming online now and I desire to risk appearing like an asshole.

I know damn well y'all feeling this shit

I don't need your pussy, bitch, I'm on my own dick

I ain't gotta power trip, who you going home with?

I was talking to somebody else the other day, who rolls with the Rationalist communities here in Toronto, and I conveyed to her I sensed she controls the conversational tempo around men in her circles with ease. I sensed she also can wrap men around her finger in these spaces.

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